It's been a while since I've been on DeviantArt.
Boy has it changed.
I see that one of my closest friends, who was quite active here, has deactivated her account.
I considered doing the same thing, but I didn't have enough courage to log on to even do that for a while.
When I first starting getting busy and stopped logging on as often, I had this feeling of guilt that I had left something that I had started. I had this grandiose dream of being popular here when I first made this page. Slowly, but surely, I realized that how many watchers I had didn't really matter, but those comments I get time to time about my work really did.
It became a vicious cycle, I wanted to log on, but was afraid that due to my neglect, I would see my page having very little traffic, that I had lost my hard-earned watchers, and most importantly, that my (rather embarrassing) old work would still be there. As days passed like that and soon became months, I was even more discouraged from logging on.
Sharing art soon became a foreign thing for me.
I'm obscenely busy these days. Perhaps my workload didn't increase so exponentially as my laziness did, but I had this period in my life recently that I felt like I was rotting in still waters and that there was nothing I could do about it, that I would just sit there, letting precious time escape from me as they fell through my fingers like grains of sand.
I'm slowly moving out of that.
I'm not sure if I'll be able to be as active as I once was. I definitely have more things on my plate than I did before and I don't think I can dedicate myself to this as much.
I was very surprised to see that people still looked at my work after my long period of inactivity.
Thank you so much for all of your comments and favorites on my work.
Every one of them mean so much to me.